The Last Beach Day

As my trip is drawing to a close, my host family took me to the beach yesterday for what is likely the last time. I ate peixinhos (tiny fish) by the sea and finished A Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway. It was the perfect day of relaxation. I leave tomorrow! It’s so bittersweet. I think about all of my friends and family that I’ve missed so much and can’t wait to see them again. I can’t wait to have friends that understand what I’m saying. I can’t wait to eat some fried chicken and macaroni & cheese. I can’t wait to be in Tennessee where there’s nature and the city doesn’t stink. I can’t wait to sleep in my own bed. I can’t wait to kiss my dog!

But there are so many things about Brazil that I am going to miss, and it’s not just the beaches. My host family has been the best thing, hands down. They are amazing. I don’t think there’s any combination of 26 different letters that could accurately sum it up. I’m going to miss them so much. I’m going to miss speaking broken Portuguese, learning new words and phrases every day. I’m going to miss all of the sweet, wonderful friends I’ve made here who took me around to places out of kindness. Kindness, I’ve learned, is universal. I’ve made awesome friends here. It seems like the best ones I made happened at the very end, too. Go figure. I’m going to miss carne do sol and peixinhos and pastels do queijo. I’m going to miss the Beira Mar. I’m going to miss the view from my little balcony. I’m going to miss watching the sunset over the horizon every day. I’m going to miss the coffee, but I bought about 12 packages to take home with me so that longing should be buried deep for a while haha. I’m going to miss the bananas. Okay, I’m getting sad now. I’m really going to miss Brazil. Saudade.

This has been a life-changing experience, and I don’t say that lightly. Fortaleza will always be my second home and I will be back again, although I don’t know when that will be exactly. My life is about to get busy when I go home. In many ways I knew that this was the last big trip I was going to get to take before “real life” begins for me. I’ll be working at The Tennessean on a writing internship starting next Monday, full time until at least the end of December. I’ll be earning school credit the entire time too, plus working at my other job. I’ll be finishing up school in January and then after that I will (fingers crossed!) have a solid place at the paper. This trip really was my last big opportunity for an adventure for a while; an adventure outside of the US at least. And surprisingly it’s been the most enlightening, fulfilling trip of my life. I’ve traveled many times before, but Brazil is the only country I’ve been to more than once. Is it all a coincidence that this trip helped me grow the most? Somehow I just don’t think so.

“Estou aprendendo a Língua do Mundo e tudo o que o mundo está começando a fazer sentido para mim.” -Paulo Coelho

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